The Other Perspective!

I am finding it hard to know what to write. As I type this I am finding it hard to focus through all the noise in my head. The last couple weeks have been rough for me. Last night was it. The flood gates burst open and it all came gushing out. I screamed, bawled, and felt lost.  I feel like I’m losing my grip on my climb up. My thoughts are not clear, my words are not coming out right, the noise in my head is getting louder, and my body is in protest of just about everything right now. Yes, indeed our current situation is beginning to take a toll on me. Most days I have been able to push through and fight. I honestly do not have the fight in me today. It’s okay to have down days but I must be very careful that one day does not turn into several in a row because then it becomes weeks, then months and so on. You may be wondering why I am blogging in the haze I am currently in.


I could just say “No, I do not need to blog about the new video that just went up. It speaks for itself.” But I made a commitment to myself that I must fight to keep the progress I've made. I said I was not going to hide in the shadows anymore instead I was going to live without shame from the mental illnesses I battle. So in order to do that I must do the things that are not easy. Oh, I’d really like to climb back into that dark hole and curl up for the long stay. But it can no longer be an option for me. So here I am, living out in the open. Breaking the stigma surrounding mental illnesses and talking about what is so very important.


He did an amazing job. Truly one I never could have done. He sheds a light I never could on this topic. He spoke so elegantly and filled with so much passion. When I met this man over 30 years ago I knew right away he was who I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. We talked in depth about what our marriage was going to look like to both of us. We both came from divorced/remarried families and we wanted to make sure we broke that chain and began to forge our own. We devoted to give our all to it and never turn back. I’ve asked him if he knew then what he knows now what our future was going to be if he would run in the other direction. He very adamantly replies with a big fat NO! I have never felt like I’ve deserved such an amazing man but I am so very thankful I have him. He is the ONLY reason I am alive today. His story is real and raw but absolutely worth every minute you spend watching.
My Turn (link)


Here is a great article to read about how to be a spouse or significant other to a person battling with mental illness. Coping With a Mentally Ill Spouse (link)


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