Hidden Beauty

I have attempted so many times to write down my thoughts or to create a new video.  However, after time passed a blank page was in front of me or the play button was still waiting to be pushed. I had no words. That seemed strange because I had so many voices in my head that did not lack words and wouldn’t stop shouting them at me. As I type this I am finding it difficult to come up with the words that would be able to explain what I am feeling and going through. I finally decided I had to be open and real no matter what that looked like. After all, I did say I was going to be real from the beginning and why was I was trying to hide now. So here we go…


The silence broke with my new video Hidden Beauty (link)


The time I spend at Mepkin Abbey is unlike any place else. I find myself wishing I could visit more often. I would love to walk the gardens and bathe in the sun. Sit and listen to the birds sing as I watch the sun glisten on the water. I have to wonder if I were able to spend more time there, would it still hold the same meaning. Would I get used to seeing the beauty before me that my eyes grow blind to it? You know, like that picture you have hanging on your wall or sitting on a stand of a person you love dearly and means a lot to you. The one you walk by every single day, maybe several times a day. The one you put there because you want to see their face and smile when you do. Be honest, do you see it every time you walk past it? Does it make you smile when you pass by? Or has it become one with its surroundings? Has it taken the shape of other object you possess? See, just like that! We sometimes see something so often that it becomes the normal and no longer as special as it once was. I do not ever want that to happen for me with the Abbey. So I must make sure I’m taking the time on purpose to always find the beauty. I must slow down to find the small wonders that are there but time must be taken to find them.


I’m glad the opportunity has been given me to experience things that I have found great beauty in. My yearly trip to the south has become a true respite. I am able to get away from the chaos of life and slow down a little. Do not get me wrong, my best friend and I keep pretty busy while I’m here. We go and do lots of different things. But we do them together and we always have wonderful conversations and laughs. We started doing something different this year though. We are taking a little time out every day to sit and reflect on life. We are trying to make time to find the beauty in everyday and just slow down enough to be able to calm our minds and inner beings. It’s been a wonderful time together. For the first time in a very long time I feel some of the heaviness inside me lifting and lightness is present. There are still plenty of things at home when I get back that will require attending but for now, they can wait. I don’t want to miss the beauty in life where I am because I’m focused on what is ahead. 


Beauty is right here and now it just takes time to find it. Don’t be too busy and/or focused on what’s happened in the past or what will happen in the future that you miss it. Stop to notice that picture and smile. Remember why you placed it there to begin with. Something only loses its beauty if we allow it to. 

Life is beautiful!